I Never Should Have Had Children

When you grow up, you don’t really worry about your parents.  They’re just there, acts of nature.  As far as you knew, they existed since the beginning of time and they would be here for the rest of it.  Sisters are there mostly to be teased, so I didn’t get too caught up with worrying about her either.

In other words, it was just me I had to worry about.  Life was good.  Life was simple.

But then this marriage thing happened.  For the first time in my life I worried when this person left the house.  “Would she make it back?” my crazy mind would wonder.  “I sure hope she’s okay,” would be a thought I would regularly have when she was gone for more than ten minutes.

As far as I knew, this was a bizarre thought for a grown man to have.  It reminded me, weirdly, of when my mom would have something that can only be compared to a heart attack and a stroke at the same time when I would come back a few minutes after my curfew.

At first, I thought this was an aberration, a confusing problem brought on by those silly Disney love movies that make it seem like you should actually care about the people around you.  Something I would get over soon enough.

But then baby #1 came.  And you see, now there was this precious thing, this thing that I was for the first time aware did not exist for all time.  This was no force of nature, this was a treasure that appeared because of a very delicate and luck-filled series of events.  She had to be delivered in a hospital because something could go wrong.  She was this delicate thing.  One wrong move and… I didn’t want to think about it.

I was no longer just worrying at specific moments.  I was worrying all the freaking time.  Every cry, every time I didn’t hold her perfectly, that time I wasn’t paying attention when she was in a sling and I lightly tapped her head against a bookstore display case.  And just about every time in between.

This experience taught me something: that life is precious.  That it’s delicate, and we’re all lucky if we happen to be moving at all, let alone healthy and vibrant.  

This was not a realization I wanted to have.  I liked it so much more when my parents were forces of nature, when my sister existed solely to be teased… At this point, I was even willing to go back to the time when I only worried about my wife when she would go out.  This realization about my daughter meant that I suddenly worried about everyone even close to me.

When daughter #2 came, life got increasingly complicated.  They would both cry at the same time, and my heart would erupt in worry, practically jumping out of my chest.  I was worrying constantly.

And worse, every look they gave me was the most absolutely beautiful precious thing I had ever seen.  Delicate miracles, do you understand?  Treasures of reality, brought out of the world of ethereal nothing and into my tiny two bedroom in Brooklyn.

And now whenever I visited my parents, I would have similar feelings.  Feelings of realizing just how preciously beautiful they are.  Just how delicate life is.  Just how lucky I am to have them.  And when my wife and I took my sister to Indian food, and I realized how freaking lucky we are, the circle was complete.

Do you understand what a travesty this is?

Before, life was natural, everything was stuck in place, and there was no such thing as miracles, no such thing as realizing how delicate it all was.  Nothing to be grateful for.  That was the good life.

When nothing is beautiful, when nothing is delicate or precious, when we have nothing to live for, life is so much better.  We have nobody to worry about.  No one for our heart to flutter for when they leave the room, or they cry with their tiny mouths, or get a bit sick.

And it gets worse when you start to open your heart to even more people after that.  Friends, acquaintances, even strangers.  

This happened to me.  Opening my heart to the people around me opened it further and further.  Do you know how painful that is?  To see girls in Nigeria kidnapped and think of your own daughters?  To see wars and revolutions all around and realize that there are real people suffering there?  That the person on the street begging for money is actually cold and hungry, and isn’t just a prop G-d put there to make me feel better about my own life?

What a disaster.  The more I love, the more I care, and thus the more I worry.

I wish I took a cue from the people that were smarter than me: the ones who never let themselves fall into this trap.  The ones who say that “being happy” is all that matters in life.

They’re the smart ones, the ones who don’t notice the miracle that is reality.  The ones who focus inwardly and ignore the pain of others and realize that worry is just a burden.

It’s too late for me, honestly, and I realize there’s no turning back.  But hopefully it’s not too late for you. The next time someone near you needs some love, run for the hills.

47 Comments

  1. Malka Hellinger Forshner May 12, 2014 at 12:25 pm

    Oh, you are just too funny……..( I was going to say “cute” but then I decided it wasn’t “chassidishe”) Yes, loving, caring, marriage, children……..if you let the layers of lead, bricks, cast iron, or even just tissue paper wrapping fall away from your heart, you’ve opened yourself to a tremendously vast ocean of possible worries, anxiety, panic attacks, and various and sordid emotional aches and pains………forever………but then again, you get access to the equally vast heavens of joy, nachas, elation and fulfillment of having discovered the meaning of being a human being here on this earth, with a just a touch of G-dlines/soul as your spiritual engine……..enjoy!

    1. Rebecca K. May 12, 2014 at 1:17 pm

      I was thinking about the halacha that the Kohen Gadol had to be married with kids…and Elad has nailed the reason why. Loving your family and worrying about them opens you up to caring about the world instead of sitting idly by when there’s trouble out there or callously focusing on yourself when others are in need.

    2. Elad Nehorai May 12, 2014 at 1:50 pm

      Beautiful, thank you!

  2. Seema Monteiro May 12, 2014 at 1:29 pm

    you love, you care, you worry… so true.. i can definitely relate to this… there is so much of insight in this article…

  3. daniel.saunders May 12, 2014 at 1:44 pm

    I worry about my kids too. Problem is, I don’t have any kids. I just worry what will happen when, hopefully, with G-d’s help, I do marry and have kids. I sometimes build terrible scenarios in my head and have to remind myself that it’s just my imagination.

    I used to worry when I was younger too. I remember one day my Dad was a bit late home from work and I was convinced something terrible had happened, probably a horrible car crash. I worried that my grandparents would die and, sadly, eventually they did, though fortunately most died “old and come on in days” (in fact it’s my paternal grandfather’s yortzeit starting tonight).

    So thank you for helping me to reconceptualize this. It’s not that I worry too much (OK, it IS that I worry too much, but that’s a separate issue), but a sign that I do actually care about those around me, that I realize that my relationships are fragile and precious and not to be wasted.

  4. Stella Wright May 12, 2014 at 1:45 pm

    I really like this. Except for the part that kind of implies all people who don’t choose to marry and/or have children believe that caring is a waste of time and love is for suckers, and that they ignore other’s pain and only focus on themselves.

    There are many ways to come to the realization that life is miraculous, gentle, and precious, and that it is ultimately worth it to care for others. Marriage and parenting are just one of those ways.

    1. Elad Nehorai May 12, 2014 at 1:48 pm

      You’re absolutely right, that part bothered me too. I just cut it out.

      1. Stella Wright May 12, 2014 at 1:52 pm

        Thank you for reading, listening, and making the change. Kudos to you.

        1. ElizaRose May 14, 2014 at 10:38 pm

          I second this. Thanks for bringing this up, Stella – and thanks for understanding, Elad!

    1. Elad Nehorai May 12, 2014 at 5:04 pm

      Oy, that post and its comments gave me heartburn. Where can I see your response?

      1. Tova Ross May 12, 2014 at 5:12 pm

        Tomorrow on Kveller, I believe.

  5. Joseph Biener May 12, 2014 at 5:07 pm

    I hate to break it to you, but there is something even worse for you coming up. There is going to be a time when those two precious bundles have grown up, and they will walk out of that protective bubble you placed around them. They will have to face the big, dangerous world on their own without you to protect them. All they will take with them are the lessons you are teaching them now. As valuable as those lessons are, there will be times when they are not enough, and your children will have to find their own path.

    Then comes the next step, grandchildren. I know it seems right now that you couldn’t possibly love anyone as much as you love your children, but then your child has a child. The love you have for them and for that grandchild will explode exponentially. Once again, there will be this small, helpless human that you would give your life to protect, but that isn’t your job. It will be your job to stand back and watch your child be the parent.

    That will also be the time when you will know what kind of parent you were. You will hear your words coming from your child’s mouth. You will see them doing for their child what you did for them. That will be the moment that you will know that you did your job well, and this precious new life is in good hands.

    You have an incredible ride still ahead of you, but you better strap yourself in. It gets bumpy from here.

    1. Elad Nehorai May 13, 2014 at 1:03 am

      My gosh this is the best comment ever. Thank you so much for sharing and giving such a deep, beautiful perspective. Might have to share this on my FB page.

      1. Joseph Biener May 17, 2014 at 2:32 am

        Of course you have my permission to share this on FB or anywhere else. If you do, I would appreciate it if you included a link to my blog, http://constructingalife.com/. I can always use some visitors.

        I am a big fan of your writing. As a Jew is who is far from observant, I appreciate your point of view. Connecting to Judaism through your writing is very comforting for me.

        Thanks for your kind words.

    2. Pederson Sonnia July 9, 2014 at 8:08 pm

      What a beautiful and wonderful testimony some time things you don’t believe can just happen. My name is Mrs SONNIA PEDERSON from U.S.A am 45 years old i got married at the age of 23 i have only one child and i was living happily .After one year of my marriage my husband behavior became so strange and i don’t really understand what was going on, he packed out of the house to another woman i love him so much that i never dream’s of losing him, i try my possible best to make sure that my husband get back to me but all to no avail i cry and i cry seeking for help i discussed it with my best friend and she promise to help me he told me of a man called DR OKAYA he is a very great man and a real man that can be trusted and there is nothing concerning love issues he cannot do that is why they call him OKAYA. I contacted his email address at (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) And i told him everything that happen all he told me is that i should not worry that all my problems will be solved immediately. He told me what to do to get my husband back and i did, he said after 3days my husband will come back to me and start begging, it really happen i was very surprise and very, very happy our relationship was now very tight and we both live happily again. So my advice for you now is to contact this same email address (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) if you are in any kind of situation concerning love issues and any other things that give you problems. THANKS… ..

  6. Kathy May 21, 2014 at 1:45 am

    Another beautiful piece, Elad! It’s such a joy to read your blog. Have you considered an anthology, or perhaps a book unrelated to the blog?

    1. Elad Nehorai May 21, 2014 at 12:04 pm

      Thank you so much, Kathy 🙂 I am considering both at the time, and I’m trying to work out a schedule that will allow me to commit the right time to both my blog and bigger projects.

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  14. Henry Westwood June 21, 2014 at 8:46 pm

    please i want you all to read this testimony as the man was brought to the world to save people from frustrations from lost loves lost jobs i wanna post on this forum because i know there are many of you out there who are in the same problem i was i am Mabel writhe and i am from Canada cold lake in Alberta and i and my husband were married for fifteen years with three children our lives were flourishing my husband had a good job and i was a sales representative in his company then on the 10th of October 2012 my home started to crumble everything was going upside down and my husband left me and my children for a little girl and when i heard of it i was so devastated and when i go to his office to see him he told his boss he doesn’t want to see me no more and in the process i lost my job i and my children we were suffering and i was looking for solutions were ever it was to no avail i contacted so many spell casters who could not do anything and i decided to give up until i met a friend on 1st of may and he told me of a powerful spell caster who she met in Africa when she went to execute a project in Africa and she gave me his mail address as{agumaguspelltemple@gmail.com}, and i contacted him on 2nd of may 2013 and he told me many things i didn’t know before he let me into many secrets and he cast the spell and told me that on 4th of may my husband was going to come back to me i didn’t believe him i had my doubt, and as he promised my husband came begging me on the 4th of may 2013 and i contacted him and told him all that he said came true and he said i was going to get my job back and also get promoted and on the 6th of may i got my job back, i was promoted and i was compensated for the days i was relieved of my work i want to thank the greatest spell caster in the world Dr agumagu he told me he can bring back lost love, lost jobs,promotion lotto win,and many more if we have two men like him today the world will be a good place once again thank you sir, here his is mail if you want to contact him as he will answer you asap.{agumaguspelltemple@gmail.com},hope he help you out too.

  15. Henry Westwood June 25, 2014 at 1:36 pm

    My Name is Emil.I will love to share my testimony to all the people in the forum cos i never thought i will have my girlfriend back and she means so much to me..The girl i want to get marry to left me 4 weeks to our wedding for another man..,When i called her she never picked my calls,She deleted me on her facebook and she changed her facebook status from married to Single…when i went to her to her place of work she told her boss she never want to see me..I lost my job as a result of this cos i cant get myself anymore,my life was upside down and everything did not go smooth with my life…I tried all i could do to have her back to all did not work out until i met a Man when i Travel to Africa to execute some business have been developing some years back..I told him my problem and all have passed through in getting her back and how i lost my job…he told me he gonna help me…i don’t believe that in the first place.but he swore he will help me out and he told me the reason why my girlfriend left me and also told me some hidden secrets.i was amazed when i heard that from him..he said he will cast a spell for me and i will see the results in the next couple of days..then i travel back to Us the following day and i called him when i got home and he said he’s busy casting those spells and he has bought all the materials needed for the spells,he said am gonna see positive results in the next 2 days that is Thursday…My girlfriend called me at exactly 12:35pm on Thursday and apologies for all she had done ..she said,she never knew what she’s doing and her sudden behavior was not intentional and she promised not to do that again.it was like am dreaming when i heard that from her and when we ended the call,i called the man and told him my wife called and he said i haven’t seen anything yet… he said i will also get my job back in 3 days time..and when its Sunday,they called me at my place of work that i should resume working on Monday and they gonna compensate me for the time limit have spent at home without working..My life is back into shape,i have my girlfriend back and we are happily married now with kids and i have my job back too.This man is really powerful..if we have up to 20 people like him in the world,the world would have been a better place..he has also helped many of my friends to solve many problems and they are all happy now..Am posting this to the forum for anybody that is interested in meeting the man for help.you can mail him to agumaguspelltemple@gmail.com I cant give out his number cos he told me he don’t want to be disturbed by many people across the world..he said his email is okay and he’ will replied to any emails asap..hope he helped u out too..good luck:agumaguspelltemple@gmail.com.Once Again His Email Address Is: agumaguspelltemple@gmail.com

  16. Wayne Joy June 25, 2014 at 11:45 pm

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  18. Clifford Mary July 2, 2014 at 7:53 pm

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  19. He is REAL July 6, 2014 at 12:27 pm

    Amos is my name, i sincerely have to not done this before, it is my first time to share my comment on my personal experience with a spell caster and i think it is worth it so as to help others in need. I want the world out there to know that there are so many fake spell casters who are out to rip you off and leave you with your problems, this has been my experience over time until God used my Aunt to introduce me to Lord Zilialia, who helped me within a short period of time and he gave me his word and dis actually fulfil them. i sincerely have not met a man like him. he is so true, words are not enough to thank him for making me have a nice mouth watering job and also for restoring my marriage and blessing my wife Mary, with the fruit of the womb, now i am a proud father. My joy knows no bound as i have never thought my life will be sweet ever again. Lord Zilialia, i appreciate your wonderful and prompt spells you are wonderful. THANK YOU!!! for all you have done for me and my household. What you say you will do is what you did. i am more than happy. please be careful of whom you contact for your spells work because so many impostors are out there with sugar coated tongue to deceive and keep ripping you off. here is one man who will do no such thing because he is truly sent to redeem man kind. i present to you Lord Zilialia, he is been tested, tried and i can confirm to you that he is trusted. contact him now on spellcaster1202@gmail.com and you will be amazed of his works. His email is spellcaster1202@gmail.com.

  20. Billioniers Clubs July 6, 2014 at 3:47 pm

    LIFE TESTIMONY
    THANKS TO DOCTOR HIOYE FOR CURING MY STOMACH CANCER
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  21. Frank Silver July 7, 2014 at 8:56 am

    I have to give this miraculous testimony, which is so unbelievable until now. I had a problem with my Ex wife 2years ago, which lead to our break up. when she broke up with me, I was not myself again, i felt so empty inside me, my love and financial situation became worst, until a close friend of mine frank told me about a spell caster who helped him in the same problem too his name is Dr Ekpiku. I email Dr Ekpiku the spell caster and i told him my problem and i did what he asked of me, to cut the long story short. Before i knew what was happening my wife gave me a call and told me that he was coming back to me in just 2days and was so happy to have her back to me. We have two kids together and we are happy with ourselves. Thanks to Dr Ekpiku for saving my relationship and for also saving others own too. continue your good work, If you are interested to contact him and testify this blessings like me, the great spell caster email address is (Ekpikuspelltemple@live.com) you are the best among all the spell caster online I hope you see my testimonies and also pray for my family too

  22. Faith July 8, 2014 at 6:50 am

    I just want the whole world to know about this spell caster I met two
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  23. Owner July 8, 2014 at 11:16 pm

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  24. mr bennad July 9, 2014 at 12:11 am

    I am Clara from Jakarta in Indonesia. I had a problem i could not give birth for ten years of marriage but today Dr. akpos help me and am happy mother of twins glory be God and thanks to my sister in-law for using Dr. akpos to deliver me.
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  25. John Melissa July 9, 2014 at 2:40 am

    my name is Melissa from u.s, I want to thank the great Dr abolo for what he did for me he brought happiness back into my life. My boyfriend left me and told me is over I was devastated as I loved him so much I decided to contact a spell caster and I met a friend who told me of a great doctor and I decided to contact him and he told me in three days my boyfriend will call me and beg me to accept him I thought he was joking in three days everything happened as he said I am so happy you can also contact him at;abolospell@hotmail.com or abolospell@gmail.com for any kind of help, or call 2347052534659. because i promise to publish his email to the world.

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  27. john smith July 9, 2014 at 9:13 am

    My name is Cynthia and my ex-boyfriend dumped me 8 months ago after I caught him of having an affair with someone else and insulting him. I want him back in my life but he refuse to have any contact with me. I was so confuse and don’t know what to do, so I visited the INTERNET for help and I saw a testimony on how a spell caster help them to get their ex back so I contact the spell caster and explain my problems to him….. he cast a spell for me and assure me of 3 days that my ex will return to me and to my greatest surprise the third day my peter came knocking on my door and beg for forgiveness. I am so happy that my love is back again and not only that, we are about to get married. Once again thank you Dr Ohehen spell caster, you are truly talented and gifted contact his email:(ohehenemenspelltemple001@gmail.com}

  28. Pederson Sonnia July 9, 2014 at 8:07 pm

    What a beautiful and wonderful testimony some time things you don’t believe can just happen. My name is Mrs SONNIA PEDERSON from U.S.A am 45 years old i got married at the age of 23 i have only one child and i was living happily .After one year of my marriage my husband behavior became so strange and i don’t really understand what was going on, he packed out of the house to another woman i love him so much that i never dream’s of losing him, i try my possible best to make sure that my husband get back to me but all to no avail i cry and i cry seeking for help i discussed it with my best friend and she promise to help me he told me of a man called DR OKAYA he is a very great man and a real man that can be trusted and there is nothing concerning love issues he cannot do that is why they call him OKAYA. I contacted his email address at (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) And i told him everything that happen all he told me is that i should not worry that all my problems will be solved immediately. He told me what to do to get my husband back and i did, he said after 3days my husband will come back to me and start begging, it really happen i was very surprise and very, very happy our relationship was now very tight and we both live happily again. So my advice for you now is to contact this same email address (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) if you are in any kind of situation concerning love issues and any other things that give you problems. THANKS…

  29. Pederson Sonnia July 9, 2014 at 8:07 pm

    What a beautiful and wonderful testimony some time things you don’t believe can just happen. My name is Mrs SONNIA PEDERSON from U.S.A am 45 years old i got married at the age of 23 i have only one child and i was living happily .After one year of my marriage my husband behavior became so strange and i don’t really understand what was going on, he packed out of the house to another woman i love him so much that i never dream’s of losing him, i try my possible best to make sure that my husband get back to me but all to no avail i cry and i cry seeking for help i discussed it with my best friend and she promise to help me he told me of a man called DR OKAYA he is a very great man and a real man that can be trusted and there is nothing concerning love issues he cannot do that is why they call him OKAYA. I contacted his email address at (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) And i told him everything that happen all he told me is that i should not worry that all my problems will be solved immediately. He told me what to do to get my husband back and i did, he said after 3days my husband will come back to me and start begging, it really happen i was very surprise and very, very happy our relationship was now very tight and we both live happily again. So my advice for you now is to contact this same email address (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) if you are in any kind of situation concerning love issues and any other things that give you problems. THANKS… .

  30. Pederson Sonnia July 9, 2014 at 8:08 pm

    What a beautiful and wonderful testimony some time things you don’t believe can just happen. My name is Mrs SONNIA PEDERSON from U.S.A am 45 years old i got married at the age of 23 i have only one child and i was living happily .After one year of my marriage my husband behavior became so strange and i don’t really understand what was going on, he packed out of the house to another woman i love him so much that i never dream’s of losing him, i try my possible best to make sure that my husband get back to me but all to no avail i cry and i cry seeking for help i discussed it with my best friend and she promise to help me he told me of a man called DR OKAYA he is a very great man and a real man that can be trusted and there is nothing concerning love issues he cannot do that is why they call him OKAYA. I contacted his email address at (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) And i told him everything that happen all he told me is that i should not worry that all my problems will be solved immediately. He told me what to do to get my husband back and i did, he said after 3days my husband will come back to me and start begging, it really happen i was very surprise and very, very happy our relationship was now very tight and we both live happily again. So my advice for you now is to contact this same email address (OKAYASPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM) if you are in any kind of situation concerning love issues and any other things that give you problems. THANKS… .. ..

  31. rose July 10, 2014 at 1:11 am

    My name is Arnaud from USA I have to give this miraculous testimony, which is so unbelievable until now. I had a problem with my Ex husband 2years ago, which lead to our break up. when he broke up with me, I was not my self again, i felt so empty inside me, my love and financial situation became worst, until a close friend of mine Lucy told me about a spell caster who helped her in the same problem too his name is Dr john. I email Dr john the spell caster and i told him my problem and i did what he asked of me, to cut the long story short. Before i knew what was happening my husband gave me a call and told me that he was coming back to me in just 2days and was so happy to have him back to me. We have two kids together and we are happy with ourselves. Thanks to Dr olori for saving my relationship and for also saving others own too. continue your good work, If you are interested to contact him and testify this blessings like me, the great spell caster email address is (john.godsend323@gmail.com) you are the best among all the spell caster online I hope you see my testimonies and also pray for my family too

  32. Anonymous July 10, 2014 at 7:38 pm

    Thank god I was not deceive by who direct me to the right man DR.ABEGBE the magic man that cure HIV/AIDS with 45mins spell let me give my story to the world to see if you are in my shoes so that you can also get help now from him I was married over 5year I don’t know how this HIV come in to our life but god can tell,me and my wife was married with HIV negative but I found out will were both HIV positive after 4year of married and our son was negative and I was very happy for that but will both was positive and this HIV come into our body through sharp object and me and my wife share it with sex that was how will both have the HIV as am write this testimony my wife is close to me with the help of DR.ABEGBE will are wash clear again HIV negative a friendof mine from Facebook introduce me to this man I share my problem to her because will are a good friend and my wife know her very well and this woman show me how to get cured from this man DR.ABEGBE is a nice man if you are faithfully to him he ask me to give him our details to him for consultation I did and he inform me what to do for the cure wish I did and after everything is done he assured me that we will be cured after 45mins and me and my wife will are very happy to show our negative result THANKS DR.ABEGBE you are the best you can get help from him now if you have HIV just contact him through this email . DR.ABEGBESPELLHOME@HOTMAIL.COM OR DR.ABEGBESPELLHOME@GMAIL.COM +2348113017989 CANCER, LIVER PROBLEMS, CHEST PAIN, ALL TYPES OF DEADLY,HIV/AID, Ebola, Rota virus, Smallpox ,Hepatitis DISEASE

  33. Tasha Benjamin July 11, 2014 at 8:10 am

    Am very happy to tell every one to hear my testimony. I have been married for 6years and on the fifth year of my marriage, another woman had to take my husband away from me and my husband left me and the kids and we have suffered for 2years until i met a post where this man Dr. swami have helped someone and i decided to give him a try to help me bring my husband back home and believe me i just send my picture to him and that of my husband and after 48hours as he have told me, i saw a car drove into the house and behold it was my husband and he have come to me and the kids and that is why i am happy to make every one of you in similar to met with this man and have your lover back to your self. You can contact him with this email address swamitemple@yahoo.com I am sure he will do same to help you too.